Knife

"Knife"

By James Benton Moon

As the booze sinks in

The words come out

My minds a blur

But I know, what I’m talking about.

How is it that, when you can’t walk a straight line

The words seem to come out just fine.

Music makes me reflect

On his past presence

Lying in this bed

I do, what I always do

I question my heart

Am I a fool?

I close my eyes and I pray

God I am here today

But I always seem to leave a part of me in yesterday

Why must my heart sometimes feel like a beating, aching, solid memory?

And love to me has no definition

No boundaries and no limitation.

Love is flawed

When it comes to correction

As I grow older

It seems to be nothing, but passion and confusion.

And I’m not even what this world, says love should be.

But screw what they all say

I may classify love as undefinable

But I at least know

that it exsists within me!

I have left and I have been left

I have had my emotions subdued to theft

Had my life feel like a mess

But God’s had my back

And I have not been suppressed.

Don’t talk down to me

I’m not a problem

When it comes to that

I’m like my brother

I just want to solve them.

I have dreams

I have goals

Even if my heart

May be filled with holes.

And if you have a moment

Stop and listen

To the music

As the wind of life, blows through them.

So now I’m ranting, panting

No!

Don’t want to hear what I’m saying, leaving

Don't go!

You stand right there!

Don’t you dare run!

My voice, like a pen is still writing

This song is not done!

I cried because of you!

Broke chairs because of you!

I shedded

Let memories fall off my back

To try and get over you!

But I’m back at your doorstep

The memory of your smile, I kept

The thought of you holding me

Cause you wanted me!

How could I forget?

Yes, I know there are two sides to everything

Could have used my heart for example

Because it was sure breaking.

Let’s not do this again

Let’s not ever pretend

That we don’t need each others hand

I’m here for you!

I love you!

To be with you

I managed to burn the sun

What more do I have to do

To make you feel like number one?

Tell me

No, I’ll tell myself

It will be different this time around

I'l do more to help

We’ll keep our hearts in our chests

And our feet on the ground

We can brave the stormy weather

Hand in hand

Eyes on each other

As long as you want me here

I’ll take on whatever is out there.

The thought of you kept me alive
back in the days of nine to five
you were just a fantasy, locked up in my mind
I was waiting for you to find
me
and you did and thus began a new time.


You have no idea, how you changed my life
I love you more, than I ever could some wife.
There's been struggles, there's been strife
but for you to not be there,
Would feel more like a knife.