Monday, August 19, 2013

To Be Connected.

So I attended church yesterday.
Am extremely grateful that there is a place to go in my hometown, where I can be myself and gain a word of inspiration and attempt to know God better. I have felt somewhat distant from him this past year...
I hope to change that. I hope to get involved and belong in a close knit community. I hope to gain some close friends in the process as well. I selfishly need all that in my life right now. Yesterday's service, during communion brought me to tears. A couple (20 years) went up together, prayed with the pastor and afterwards, tenderly kissed each other. It was just simply a beautiful moment to have witnessed. It's great that we have a place to go. Solo or together and be told and believe that God loves us for who we are. That we can feel connected. That's what I am in search of now. To be connected with myself and to be connected with God. In being connected. My life will perceive to connect the dots and my path will be shined and Lord willing every step I take from this day forward. I will be in the right place.

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Latest Film Project. "Here's To The End."

Ok fellas, this one right here was experimental in the fact that this was all Improv! That's right. There was no set script for this film. We took random locations, random themes, two actors,  (One of them being yours truly) a little directing, a lot of back and forth and the word ACTION and we eventually came up with a story.
The brothers at Halo Union (Nathan and Ben) did a terrific job editing and putting something together out of raw material. So give it a looksy. Hope you enjoy. More to come soon! --- Jimmy
A film by Halo Union & Moonlight Writes.

Friday, June 28, 2013

Swimming Against The Tide.


Western roads before me?
East of the past behind me?
A U-turn or another chance to take?
To embrace the void within my soul or shoot myself down by another, repetitive, self indulged, mistake?
How do you trade in a heart break for a clean slate?
How can fingers cause comfort as well as chaos?
Good intentions only result in bad memories.
No more God... Please... No more.
What must I do?
I know a part of me needs to change. A part of me still needs to be found.
Expectations linger in both of my worlds.
Can I have both worlds become the earth?
Where I can breathe. Feel nothing but warmth and contentment.
Where I can stand at the ocean's edge.
Peer at my reflection and be happy with the person I meet.
God, please, don't let that person just disappear with the tide of life.
The person, the better person, I can be.
For me and for him.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

A CanHead Thought.

Trying to figure out, if I've had enough. Not just of you, but of myself as well
and what does that mean?
Your words continue to cycle around like the cycle of my fu**** up mistakes.
With every mistake, I fear my fate, full of that moment's hate, you walking out the door.
So I am trying, a word we both hate, to figure out, if I should just cycle and sob

or set you free from the burden of me and go ahead and turn the knob. --- Yours Truly.

Thursday, June 20, 2013

A Canhead Thought.

I was working yesterday. Helping an elderly couple get into their vehicle. We were making small talk, asking questions. One of the questions asked of me by the elderly man was "How old are you son?"
In which I replied. "I just turned 26 sir."

"Aw! 26!" The man's wife boomed. "At the prime of his life!"

Hmm... Interesting statement, I thought. I'm at the prime of my life?

I've been thinking a lot about life lately. Age. Growing older. Looking back at different stages of my life. When you think about it, you really live several lives inside one.
At least, that's how I see it.

I lived a life as a content, happy, baby in Charleston, SC with both my parents still under the same roof.
I lived a life as a confused, angry, teenager in Athens, Ga. Just wanting out.
I lived a life as a confident, loved and accepted young man in Atlanta, Ga.  I was me and I was with him.
I lived a life as an independent, part time drifter, in Austin, Tx. Seeking to make something happen in my life and in my dreams.
I'm living a life as a humpty dumpty character once again in Athens, Ga. Strong yet fragile. Vulnerable yet not dumb. Hanging onto love. Hanging onto my dreams. Still trying to put one foot in front of the other in gratitude of the now and in faith that tomorrow will bring another God given blessing and that one of those blessings is that my feet carry me closer to God himself.

So yea... To me, life, consist of a few in one.

Life. Growing older. Aging.

I think to myself. "I feel young. Like I'm still 18." Mentally, I am young.
People I have spoken with, friends, coworkers, even my father. They say the same thing.
"I feel young. My age reflects nothing... except perhaps a few wrinkles."

So I've come up with a conclusion.
Being young is really just a state of mind.
Are we ever really grown ups? Do we ever truly grow up or do we just... age?

So why can't every age of our lives... be the prime of our life?
You can be 20 or you can be 50 and you can still be young. It's a state of being. A state of mind.
There is nothing we can do about aging. That is nature. God's process.
However, our minds can remain young, if we want them too. We can remain to view the world, life, through young, optimistic, imaginative, adventurous eyes. We are still alive. LIVE!
We don't have to get to a certain age and just give up.
Let our youth, our dreams, our imagination, fade into the wood work.
If you feel it. Be it.
Age is physical. Youth is mental.

Friday, June 14, 2013

An experimental film done back in December with
Halo Union Productions.
Please excuse the typo... If ya notice it. :)